I'm going to tell you something...
I'm not good expressing my feelings in writing... especially in English ...maybe because i know i'm not good in English grammar, and i don't have enough confidence when it comes to my English grammar, but now i'm doing it for some personal and not so personal reasons :D ...
When i am down or really sunk in melancholy, i tend to vent with my close friends or with my boyfriend, whom i consider my sounding board... I thought it is good, yes it's good... good for me, because I tend to released my sadness, i became fresh and the pain fade away for the thought that they are there to listen, knowing that I have them in time of my downfall.
When i am down or really sunk in melancholy, i tend to vent with my close friends or with my boyfriend, whom i consider my sounding board... I thought it is good, yes it's good... good for me, because I tend to released my sadness, i became fresh and the pain fade away for the thought that they are there to listen, knowing that I have them in time of my downfall.
Until, i realized its just good for me, and not for them... It makes them feel the pain that i had, that makes them brought to melancholy and worst make them feel that I am just their burden...
:)I feel sad at first and feel bad, of course, knowing that the person I depend on and thought that they are the one who will leap me up when I am down is the same person who makes me feel out of my feet again...
But then i realized, I have to be matured enough, I need to be unselfish, I have to grow up and change a little, so the person i value will see me as an asset and not just a burden, I'd rather be their candle that light them up in time of darkness... That no matter how I am hurting, I'm choosing to hide the pain... just like a candle, giving light while silently burning...
:)annenonimity
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